Saturday, 30 October 2010


"Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?" Jesus replied: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.' This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments."- Matthew 22:36-40

"He has showed you, O man, what is good. And what does the LORD require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God." - Micah 6:8

Simple commands for simple minds. Just do this, this simple thing, and everything else will fall into place. But what about- Just love God. What if- And love other people.

Shown what is good, told what the most important things are, given specific, simple instructions that require no heavy lifting but just a willing heart. Why? Because it's all that matters. All we need. And deviation from these simple things leads to hurt and complications and misery. Simples- it couldn't be easier for us- grace has done it all, all we have to do is live in the way that our response should dictate.

But I don't. Even when I know what is right and good, I go my own way. I don't act justly. I don't love mercy. I don't.

And these are the reasons I think that we're ill.

"If only You’d wash me, ’cause I can’t see the stains. My G-d, I’m so scared, ’cause I’m fractured but I don’t feel the breaks. Have I loved too many daughters to ever be whole? I’m ashamed that You love me. Send grace for the hearts that I stole.
"- Lashes, My Epic.

Sunday, 24 October 2010


My word how I hate comfortable life. It's so tame, so regular and unfulfilling. Is this life in all its fulness? Is this what a non-conformist looks like? Is this a day lived, lived by someone waiting for eternity?

"If we believe but do not follow...then maybe we don't believe." -tree.

Sunday, 17 October 2010

Forever is fleeting.

"My people have committed two sins:
They have forsaken me,
the spring of living water,
and have dug their own cisterns,
broken cisterns that cannot hold water...

Where then are the gods you made for yourselves?
Let them come if they can save you when you are in trouble!"

-Jeremiah 2:13,28

"Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday
But I realized some bigger dreams of mine
And Abigail gave everything she had to a boy
Who changed his mind.
And we both cried.

Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them..."

- Fifteen, by Taylor Swift

HILARIOUS turn of events.

Tuesday, 12 October 2010


  • Life is far too busy and I don't know how people do it.
  • People are incredible and fragile and I am irresponsible when I forget this all the time.
  • Every part of me hurts.

Saturday, 2 October 2010


Just a general theme of my pondering at the moment, or more, what God's definitely pressing on my heart, is that where we have a vision, an ideal, a standard and and aim, so often we change it to make it more achievable. But by virtue of this, the vision is not attained- something else, something less, is. So my thinking and my praying is that we need to change (I definitely need to change), we as people need to change, not what we aim for. We need to have more faith and more hope in the visions we're given becoming reality. Until the picture in our mind and heart matches perfectly the picture our eyes perceive, no target should be lowered, no standard dropped, no concessions made.

I don't think God does half-measures. He didn't send Jesus with the fanciful idea that maybe He'd save all of Galillee, but with the full intention that the world, the whole world and every single broken heart in it would turn back to Him. He healed with that vision in mind. He multiplied food with that vision in mind. He picked up the cross and stumbled to His death to pay the ultimate price for sin with that vision in mind. Even now, the repurcussions of that life and that death and that resurrection are creating ripples of salvation that eventually will cover every person. If God changed His vision and gave up, we'd be lost.

He did not compromise. Jesus was offered kingdoms by satan and He refused. He had a vision of how this rescue was going to happen, and it was love all the way. And the result of that is what He promised, what He came to bring- life in all its fullness. So why, when we're hidden in Him, made co-heirs of everything that Jesus has from the Father, why do we settle for less than God says is possible?

In anything, all I'm thinking is this. God has enough power and strength and sovereignty to save the world- so if He's put a vision in your heart, don't settle for less, don't lower your standards and don't doubt that He'll do it if you persevere. Change your attitude and faith before you change your vision. Hold fast. Hope hard.

I'm talking at myself again.